roll and spin

For the past 2 weeks, I have been doing nothing except studying, if not thinking about study as well. I’m feeling lazy at this hour and figuring out to increase my studying capacity while on the other side of the world, million miles away from here, people are figuring or fighting to survive. We all know, it’s not a way to raise the curtain for 2009. A downturned economy in that world of profanity, adolescence, ozone depletion, nuclear bombing, racism, sexism, rocket launchers, fighting jets, terror on the rise, thousands of innocent soul blown into pieces. It’s ironic isn’t it? When the smart people in pentagon talk about war, they’re not really talking about peace and democracy. I begin to wonder, why do people still tell me to have a nice day? Just as every imbalance in life needs adjustment for survival, so has been my experience with dental school. I feel like I am starting to get a grasp on what this second year is going to be like REALLY. You know, the more we get to play with our Kavo electric high speed on some dental “dude” or throw plaster around and the more we get to be away from the lecture class, the happier we all are. Yeah? Sigh. Well, I've been making fine adjustments to try and calibrate my time to handle the notes that being flashed before my eyes in the form of never ending power points slide. As am finding the most effective means to free myself from distractions and cram all that basic science stuff into my head, internet connection service came in a very wrong time. Keeping my room somewhat dark with just my study table illuminated, it helps me to focus - maybe. Am trying, I need a damn break after exam. I thought I’d write more about on my dental student’s life next time. Trying to keep my camera handy and upload some of the pictures of what is going on, be it in the class or lab session. Our AIMST Dental School facilities and equipments are second to none so as the awesome people in the faculty itself. It’s always fun to be part of the dental community here.

do i miss home?

Yeap.

Do you ever have those time in your life that you could go back to the days when everything was not that simple then, but looking at it now, it was. Well, practically. I am having one of those days today. Well not to go into so much, I miss home. Browsing through the old photos back high school and reading about gathering and reunion back home. I miss the old hang outs, all of the friends that i grew up with which i never see again now. Exactly 3 years since I left high school. Ah! I know you guys are reading this. A few of you from Australia, Russia, Ireland, India, Germany, Eygpt, Poland, Ukraine and the list goes on. And dudes? Remember the road that we would ride on and listen to loud music? Sneaking out from house? The place that we hoop at until the next morning? The fights and conflicts that we shared? Kicking football on the field with our blazers on? From bicycle to bike and cars? What really matter that time was laughter and stupidity. I am never the type to wish to rewind time to mend or change things, but I just wish to daydream and a little about yester-year, the good old times. If you know what I mean.

4 months prevent instant insanity

Sometime, stopping dead in daily tracks is hard and it’s even harder while taking a walk along our daily routes. It comes without any warning, come to a halt. I did try to put on breaks in my shoes as it was, turn motionless. A total lost and a deep thought. Well, maybe fate has a cruel way of putting things together. Maybe it’s better if people just give up when there’s no point in fighting for something anymore. It’s cool how it was when in kindergarten days. All I had to do to make friends is walk up to a dude or kid and say "Hi. You become my friends. Ok?" and then life went on from there. Back then, people just accepted everyone was equal. No one was more popular than one another or more attractive than someone else. I didn't have all the pressure of remembering all the formulas and spelling rules and that crap teenagers have to do now, I only had to remember how to spell ma name and it was all good. I didn't even think about my future, and if I did it would be what am gonna get for birthday. Life was just about toys and best of all no f*ckin responsibility. Whatever happened to the way things were? Oh yeah, we grew up. We learned a hard way. And now, we are living in a world where if you’re not skinny, not smart, not beautiful, not sexy and not straight. You’re neglected, accused, bombarded, tortured, abused and humiliated. We say we are all equal but there is still racism, sexism, and people judging others based on their sex, religion, etc . We have barriers and borders between us. Yes, that world, where love is not so rare and where people actually don’t really care. I can see a world without hate, without violence and without war. Then I can see us bombing that world because they wouldn't expect it.

Update: For once, my blog’s gone a bit stagnant for months, thanks to Telekom. Here I am standing as a second year dental student now. My days run from 8am to 5pm. I’ve definitely had to do some tailoring of my time. I have been told by profs and seniors that what it could be possibly a crucial and interesting year for us. Yeah, I get in some going out time but it’s a balancing act. 

holiday

Why do people always make things harder then they need to be? Do what you can with what you have where you are. The world doesn't recognize your pride, but it distinguishes your integrity. I want to believe I'm not afraid of life. Messages and signs are all around us in the most unexpected ways and everyday comes with a lesson that maintains us humble. It’s harsh since the day of birth, but it makes us wise beings with more experience, and we should never feel pity for ourselves. I do not regret disobeying society's silent codes because my mistakes, my impulses fulfill me in many different ways. And I'm learning that good can only result through risk taking but always considering sensibility and rationality. Life is a sick joke.